An excerpt from my journal
Okay, so last night as a team, we wrote down the lies that Satan has been holding over us individually. Here’s my list, a lot of this has been recent from the trip:
-I must first love in order to be loved
-I’m not enough in any way
-I’m scared to speak my mind
-I shouldn’t speak my mind
-What if my words do more harm than good?
-What if the words I’m supposedly hearing from God aren’t actually from Him and I’m just speaking nonsense over my teammates? If I’m wrong, then I’m not hearing the voice of God and I’m too dumb to discern His voice from my own.
-I’m scared to be me completely around God, always scared of offending Him with my sin.
After I wrote that last one, God told me to write down exactly what He spoke to me. He kind of took control of my pen and hand:
Look what you have tattooed on your foot! Tetelestai, it is finished! It’s already been paid for, so speak your mind, child. Speak it fully and completely. Nothing you say or think could possibly offend Me or seperate you from Me. You are my bride and we are ONE. Do not try to seperate what I have put together.
After we wrote down our lists, we read them out loud. It’s funny how some of those lies were written down more than once on several women’s lists.
Then we tore up said lists of lies, and we wrote a new one, a list of truths to come against those lies. Here’s mine:
-I am loved FIRST. 1 John 4:10, Ephesians 1:4-6
-My thoughts DO matter, especially amongst my teammates, and I have the right to speak up. Ephesians 3:12
-God is bigger
-I was made for love.
-Romans 6:6-8
That’s about it for now. Maybe I can upload a couple of videos next week? We’ll see :) Oh and before I forget, a HUGE thanks to my church for their donation to my trip. It’s helping insanely. And thank you everybody for the multitude of prayers:)
